Dream?

Who do I run of on my dreams? Would it be some sort of selfly thing? That's the first thing i came up when i thought about it. If i'm escaping from myself, then it should mean i gotta change something, well i always have known that, but what does that bossy, charming, yet gorgeous girl that opens up her legs to me? And what did i had to do? Fuck her? Runaway? By the way i felt weird even several hours after waking up... if i really woke up, i mean.

Give.up

I kind of decided I won't let anyone else into my life, not even think about it, i'll just close up my feelings and heart, and try to be myself, but alone, like i was born. I'm sorta tired of deception, and it's all my fault, so... here is when i start (or try to) my ice heart state.

Feelings Folder

Sometimes I'd love to have a folder or even a whole file with my feelings arranged by date, hour and alphabetically. Maybe it could help me to know how to react properly netx time. Maybe i'll figure out one.

-Feeling(s): Eagerness, Dissapointment, self-hatred.

-Date: Today.

-Hour: Now.

Much

Too much hyperness might lead you to a higher state of clarity, or instead of that, just to a great dissapiontment, but i'm aiming for the first thing. I don't know why i feel so good if this feeling is not much new to me, but maybe the circumstances have made me more naive and lesser careful of showing myself to Him, to others indeed; i'm learning to open my heart and trying not to get hurt.

Could I?

Not much times a month I feel like this... but now I feel like my heart's gonna escape through my mouth... in eagerness. I just feel fine, and eager. It kind of freaks me out (in a good way i mean) and i just want to keep it going like this... it just came up naturally, like i didn't force it at all but i still put on it my very efforts. I like the way everything just happens and how He makes it happen as well... maybe I ARE jus dreaming around, but i feel right today.

Regret Amoeba

FEELS LIKE THAT, BUT YET'S FINE

Want.to

Sometimes i feel that i have so much to do yet, but i really don't want to do it all alone, like i have done already. I'd like to really like somebody, to make him or her loved and cared of... and not just like a friendship, i are dummy, i know, but i guess if i hope it, sooner or later it'll happen. Or not (?)'.